English version: 3'11"; Chinese version:4'11"
Confession: Prologue is a video diary of my monologue as a mother. It provides a glimpse into my struggle with postpartum depression that put a long pause to my artistic practice. This video unfolds in an essay-video form, narrating the reality of the internal war rising from motherhood. The rhythmic typing develops concurrently as my emotions rise and cease while I mimicked the way my daughter draws, as manifested in an animated line video overlapping the running text. By observing and making sense of a new born’s desire to fathom the form and formlessness of the world via artmaking, I reached an epiphany that allowed me to reestablish the connection between the meaning of art-making, of life itself and of giving birth. The video is part of an ongoing photobook project since 2014.